Page 3

Page 3 of my painting sketchbook. Working on personal mythology with my own characters, world, metaphors.
I’d say this is done in my “natural” drawing style. If I just draw without thinking much about it, let myself go into a flow state, this is what it looks like. Unfortunately, I don’t like the way I draw very much! My mind says “Keep it simple. Be deliberative and intentional with your lines. Slow down and think about what you’re doing.” My hand says “Wha? I just made 10,000 lines while you were blabbing.” I like how I’ve returned to the way I made art in college though, which is when I enjoyed it the most.
This painting went way off course from what I had in mind. I was going for wild, vibrant, and wavey with simple shapes and abstract/layered concepts. So, in that sense, this one was like trying to make a hot dog and getting a turd in a hamburger bun. There’s work to be done!
My other goals were to lean on my feelings, leave out intellectual concepts, experiment with new techniques, tools, and mediums, and to tell a story. Those objectives were successful.

Painting Sketchbook 2

I’ve never been the type of artist to explore a specific idea the way a fine artist might. I have always jumped from subject to subject, never making 2 paintings related to each other. These explorations are working on the idea that there’s a place where you are, but your mind and body aren’t. I want to keep exploring this idea because there are a lot of facets and a deep well of understanding to illuminate. I’ve been thinking of these as paint sketches; explorations to someday paint “for real” when I am in a place to do so. I am doubtful that the day will come, but the practice will help me when I am in a place to make art on a larger scale again.

This page didn’t go the way I hoped, but the lessons learned will be valuable, I suspect. Drew too many petals, couldn’t make the person glow. I’m still not happy, but it’s time to move on and try again. I don’t have the vibrant colors I needed, which can be limiting when working with markers. I didn’t think Tombow Fude pens bled, but with alcohol-based markers they will if you’re scrubbing them, so I go some muddy colors. I really, REALLY overworked this! On the other side, I am loving the marker/gelly roll combo. Gelly Roll pens are seriously underrated! 🙂